Hanging up my wings

Just figured I'd post here as I lurked and posted in the
rec.aviation.student groups a lot during training. Mostly looking to
vent some as I have no pilot-friends aside from my former
instructor.

Over the last few months I've unexpectedly lost consciousness 3 times
on two occasions (second time I went out again a few minutes later).
I've also had several episodes of not feeling "right" - dizzyness,
inability to focus, feeling disconnected, etc. I haven't been flying
at all during this time as I was afraid of anything happening in the
air, and now, though I haven't gotten an official diagnosis yet, all
signs are pointing to me having panic disorder. I've no doubt that I
will/would fail my next medical; I don't even trust myself in the air
at the moment and have voluntarily grounded myself. Kinda
disappointing as I've always been so interested in flying and having
only started training about 2 and a half years ago (and having had my
PPL for less than a year); it's not fun to have to hang it up so
early.

Oh well. Just needed somewhere to rant a bit. I'm thinking I'll keep
going up every now and then with an instructor along; it's not the
same as solo (I actually enjoyed flying alone), but it's a safe and
legal way to get into the air.

Mike